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Borrowing Lana's words, I'm currently having a serious quarter life crisis.

Plans...
What am i gonna do after RPI?
Grad school?
Job-hunt immediately?
Babysit my 10 nephews and nieces?
Teach a bunch of most-of-the-times-annoying 8-year-olds???? (Wow, i love kids!)
Sharpen my cooking skills by cooking for everybody in the house 4 times a day?? (breakfast, lunch, tea-time, dinner)
What am i supposed to do? Where am i supposed to work? Where? Why? What??? How???!

Possibilities of what might be...
Am i gonna spend the rest of my life doing something that i hate?
Am i gonna be the C player among the stars?
Am i gonna work with a measly pay and depend on my husband to buy me that gorgeous CD handbag?
Am i gonna tell my children "mummy cant buy that for you because mummy has no money, really" in the supermarkets?
Or...
Am i gonna be the one telling people what to do?
Am i the one people come to when they need solutions?
Am i the owner of a successful branch of Johnny Rockets?
Am i the successful mother of 2 successful children and the wife of a happy husband? (hihi.. behind every successful man is a great woman!)

I AM crazy.
Maybe i'm overthinking this. I am now a lunatic. kerayzi.
Blegh.
Urggh.
Thank you to shaliza and mr ach for bearing with me these couple of crazy weeks. Hiihihi. Love.

side note: Professor WWWW aku sure suka baca nih. ada paragraph, ada header. sumelah ade kiranya. blegh.

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