Ramblings of a Mami of Two

If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain. I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you’re reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this. I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical thin...

1st Scene. Daddy and Mommy are fighting in the living room,right in front of their little son. Daddy : Oh!!! You Bitch! Mommy : What?? You Bastard! Son : Daddy, Mommy, what's Bitch and Bastard?? At this moment, Daddy blushes. He quickly thinks up of something. Daddy : It means Ladies and Gentlemen son. Son : Oh I see! > > > > > > > > 2nd Scene... Little Son was watching a TV show about premarital sex and there they mentioned the words 'breasts' and 'penises'. Mommy was reading the papers. Son : Mommy, what's breasts and penises? At this moment, mommy turned blue, and quickly thought of something to say. Mom: It means coats and hats, son. Son : Oh I see! > > > > > > 3rd Scene... Daddy was shaving his beard and son passed by; the toilet. Suddenly daddy cut himself and scream... Daddy : Oh SHIT!! Son : Daddy, what's shit? At this moment,...

hari ni buat pertaman kalinya in my life i had a winter fall..nyehehe aper mende ntah winter fall.. aku jatuh aa tadi..gedebuk cam nangke busuk...adoi sakit..

horribly horribly depressed!!

Never talk too much to anybody you might end up suffering when people misunderstood what you said and you end up hurting each other saying things you never really meant.

so damn sleepy..i think i'm still suffering from jet lag lah...mengantuk niii....just finished doing the sucky Litec..tired like hell..

in loving memories...

oi oi ya oi~ ola!!not feeling very well lah~

teringin nak makan kenny rogers...aaa~tensionnyer!!!takde kenny rogers ker kat US nih aa???

Saat hidupku ku bermula adalah kali pertama aku mengenalimu... - Johan

alo...back in this sejuk,dull troy...jet lag..tak larat nak gi kelas..sore throat,lapar..nothing to cook..alalalalala~~ it's only been 24 hrs and i'm missing home soooo badly..couldn't stop crying all the way from malaysia to london...couldn't even eat the nasik lemak sebab everytime i tried to suap nasik i'd remember mak's nasik lemak...well she knows i love nasik lemak and she always masak nasik lemak masa aku balik mesia..and she bought my favorite nasik lemak kat nenek depan masjid the day b4 aku balik...my eyes are getting all red and puffy sebab nangis2..and tak cukup tido lagik..adoi2..i miss home very much lah..really2...makk nak balikkkkkkkk!!!! tetiber cam thinking of going back this summer...but i have to save money from now on and this time i really mean it..but nak balik laa...nak jumpa mak...adoi2...seriously i really miss home..and my cute anak2 buah...rindu main abc ngan nyin,main bola ngan naim petang2,kejut alang bangun gi sekolah,main ngan a...

it's a matter of accepting others the way they are...it's a choice you've made,and you should be fully aware of all the risks you've agreed to take... oh again i'm talking crap...

oh fine have it your way when you started the whole thing and in the end i'm the one who's not interested..and in the end i get the blame...gnitelah then have a good dream..

second entry in 30 minutes..before i start talking nonsense i'd better stop..or it couldve been worse

suddenly everything becomes quiet..without any reason or maybe there was something i didnt notice...something went wrong without me realizing what was it...suddenly everthing changed and suddenly..i had no mood to go on..on to discover that it;s only for some stupid reasons...if i still have the feelings i wouldnt have done it 6 months ago but for a very strong reason i did..and there would be no way on earth that i'd regret that particular decision i'd made..

hmm tension...akmal tak layan aku..pressure...then adek aku laks jiwang ngan awek dier adoi~~~~~~~~~~sakit jiwa aku...kanak2 ribena ini..by the way...akmal's ignoring me..salah cakap ker ape i dunno...went out dengan nida and ana today pergi KLCC..ate nasik campur kat picnic and guess how much i had to pay??rm11.50 for a pinggan of nasik + ayam masak merah + sayur + begedel..crazy man~cekik darah aku betul...i was so damn shocked mase tu..haha nak buat aper wey bayar je le..duduk kat picnic tu from 3pm sampai 7...borak2 pasal nonsense..anyways...aku mcam takde mood skarang..hehe manjang tade mood jer...jumpe elle ngan ustad ngan ninie...haha ninie si gembira...=)