Ramblings of a Mami of Two

sorry people!!!!i really wanted to go to the fundraising meeting but sorryyyyyyyy tadi tertido...sorry mehh....sorry nadiah mintak tolong kau kejut tapi tak bangun..huhu..tak sedar...i slept like tak ingat dunia...oh sorry people..but wanna join the fundraising~

&nbsp&nbsp&nbspwoohoo aku tak tido lagi...been having fun since bangun tido tadi..takut tertido..aku study la sket tapi study tu mengantukkan..so aku main game sekejap..hehe..not that anybody cares tapi saje nak cerita jugak.. &nbsp&nbsp&nbspbut suddenly..i dont know why...pagi2 ni...aku cam tersyahdu...syahdu kat apa..tak tau..tiba2 je aku syahdu..ya rabbi braper kali nak pakai word ni...you know you really love somebody when suddenly you think of him and you cried bila ingat balik sumer benda sweet yang dier buat to you...i mean oh..things are getting sappy here..cant help it.all those things he did to you made you feel really appreciated and sudddenly you cried thinking how much he's done for you....and this time words are not enough to tell how much you love him...

&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Wheeeeeeee!!~~~ It's 545 am and i'm up.Yeap,AM!!!hehehhe..ape kerje aku bangun pepagi nih?saiko??hehe well actually it's all about saiko and multivar...man...why did i take this class and menyusahkan my mind once again with david schmid's stuff???tak cukup ke ngan diff eq?ke aku sayang sangat ngan schmid sampai sumee kelas dier aku nak amek??muahaha...anyways,seriously aku ni kena bangun pagi..bukan nak study tapi aku kena gi kelas...tula..sape suh amek kelas 9 am everyday..perasan hebat la tuh??hehehe..and since i've ponteng the kelas almost everyday for almost everyweek now,it's about time to think of something so aku gi kelas hari2..so..i've come up with this idea... &nbsp&nbsp&nbspSee,the first 2 weeks after i came back from malaysia,aku tak nah ponteng kelas..sebab...JETLAG...tidur kol 8 malam bangun balik kol 4.Cukup2 8 jam...then i woke up at 4 and mandi and breakfast and all pastu aku ada laa kengkadang bukak...

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp hmm...two previous entries are just songs..but i really like the last one....wouldnt it be nice lalalalala~it's a song by beach boys..well i never knew about them until haritu when i watched 50 first dates.Then barulah tau pasal derang ni...comel lagu ni.. &nbsp &nbsp &nbsp Yesterday I had LITEC exam..man it was like (#%&@#!!I thought i've studied enough,well i still think i have...but the questions were nothing like what i used to do!!Ok,somebody told me dont rely too much on past papers,but seems like since fall 1999 all the questions have been very much alike,same format same questions,different numbers different codes.But yesterday's was nothing like previous years'!!bunguks ker aper..huhuhu that was really unfair...i really thought i could do the exam,well at least i knew what i'm doing in the class...and for the first time i know how to use a for loop..i had quite a good feeling on the exam only to find out the q...

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older Then we wouldn't have to wait so long And wouldn't it be nice to live together In the kind of world where we belong You know its gonna make it that much better When we can say goodnight and stay together Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up In the morning when the day is new And after having spent the day together Hold each other close the whole night through Happy times together we've been spending I wish that every kiss was neverending Wouldn't it be nice Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do We could be married And then we'd be happy Wouldn't it be nice You know it seems the more we talk about it It only makes it worse to live without it But lets talk about it Wouldn't it be nice

I'm so tired of being here suppressed by all my childish fears and if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone you used to captivate me by your resonating light but now I'm bound by the life you left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears and I've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone but though you're still with me I've been alone all along when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears and I've held your hand ...

aku emo sekarang..sangat emo sangat emo sangat emo..sangat benci dan sangat menyampah..well tak tau apa aku cakap tapi takpelah lantaklah nak cakap bahasa sastera pon aku tak tau camner...mampus lah...

serious cam tak braper paham...some people just have big problem with me sleeping a lot....what to do...i know i sleep a lot and honestly ive tried to lessen my sleeping hrs but it's just stuck at 8..or more...there are more things to say but i just dont know how..sometimes people expect too much from me...okay say i'm a lazy bump i dont care...why cant they accept me for who i am??sedey~

exam MAU cam aper jer..and minitab pon cam *&^%#E!sabar jer la aku..actually i was quite confident that i can do the exam but when my minitab jadi cam tah paper aku pon jadik kelam kabut and the rest of the exam aku cam panicked and aku dah buang banyak masa carik menatang alah MTW bla bla...it took me lama gila utk find the files..well your mistake la jugak kan...yeah ok ok...aku tak pernah tau la pulak kat maner menatang alah minitab tu but arent they supposed to put everything related to minitab in one folder??!!pi letak satu namer minitab lagi satu MTSASDASF aper2 namer pon aku tak tau tu batper??buduhnya aku nih...i was so desperate to find the file last2 i used Search kat laptop...amek kau lama plak tu dier nak carik file tuh..nasib baik jumpa....tu pon dah2 nak abes exam...so if u were me tak ke bengang???habis satu exam..satu A sudah terbang..the paper has 10 qs 10 pts each...so satu A dah terbang..oh man i really miss the time when i used to score A for everything...

preparing for my MAU exam...it;s gonna be a busy day today...MAU exam 2-320 and LITEC open shop 4-ntah tak tau sampai bila...this LITEC thingy is taking all my time and killing me lah..ok ok i'm whining but seriously why other schools takde LITEC??or maybe ada but they dont whine like me..ok betul ker eja whine?hahaha oklah takpela whatever..nantila summer nanti aku amek english class nyehehe...wait i dont need english class....dah duduk negara omputih lagi mau pergi english class...class free ade tanak amek advantage..buduh..hehe..sendre ngaku sendre buduh..well..you've gotta admit your mistakes sometimes...

so the very sleepy~~

TANDA-TANDA KEMATIAN UNTUK ORANG ISLAM Tanda 100 hari sebelum hari mati. Ini adalah tanda pertama dari Allah SWT kepada hambanya dan hanya akan disedari oleh mereka-mereka yang dikehendakinya. Walaubagaimanapun semua orang Islam akan mendapat tanda ini cuma samada mereka sedar atau tidak sahaja. Tanda ini akan berlaku lazimnya selepas waktu Asar. Seluruh tubuh iaitu dari hujung rambut sehingga ke hujung kaki akan mengalami getaran atau seakan-akan mengigil. Contohnya seperti daging lembu yang baru disembelih dimana jika diperhatikan dengan teliti kita akan mendapati daging tersebut seakan-akan bergetar. Tanda ini rasanya lazat dan bagi mereka sedar dan berdetik di hati bahawa mungkin ini adalah tanda mati maka getaran ini akan berhenti dan hilang setelah kita sedar akan kehadiran tanda ini. Bagi mereka yang tidak diberi kesedaran atau mereka yang hanyut dengan kenikmatan tanpa memikirkan soal kematian , tanda ini akan lenyap begitu sahaja tanpa sebarang munafaat. B...

one of the happiest day of my life..who said i'd Be unlucKY?you're are So wRong bRother COz i've NEver beeN happiER!!

ohh suddenly i cant stop thinking....

i have this one small question..how la kan...somebody owes you a big amount of money but you've done something wrong to them,terribly2 wrong and now that somebody hates you for what you've done,how are you gonna ask that person to return your money???kinda susah la kan?so how meh???maybe not now since i dont really need that money but when the time comes how meh??

hello, &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp it;s been a very long time since i last heard from you.The last time i saw you you were waving and smiling very happily to me,and i still remember that smile until now.How could i forget that cheeky smile of yours???i've gotta to be out of my mind if i ever do!! &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp so how are you?i hope you;re doing fine.as for me,i think i'm doing fine too..hehe..but maybe my brain is toooooo tired...i've been in this library since this morning studying but i dont think i;m doing much progress here..well i dont think i have to explain every single thing i've done today since you;re always watching me,arent u? But it;s ok, i still wanna tell you what i;ve been doing today though i know you already knew..in fact u know more than i do..tapi takpelah.. &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp i really miss you..things have never been the same since you left.Everybody has changed,including me.Well lets not talk about sad stuff here ok....

kinda pissed off..hehehe...eh how can u be pissed and then ketawa at the same time??takpelaa u cant be pissed for too long esp to people you cant blame for pissing you off..hehehe...banyaknya "piss" kali ni...okla gtg kesian malaviya bebel sorang takde sape dengar..byee..Peace~~

hehehe tetiba rasa kelakar plak..nak share tp tade sape..sume cam idle..buhsan aaaaaaaaaa!!

ola..came across one website..unintentionally..and found out that some of the contents very funny...well i wonder why..maybe because what's in there has something to do with u??kuikui... anyways,i was surfing MASA@RPI website and Lana posted one article..entitled "Are You A Typical Malay".Sounds interesting,doesnt it??So there adalah this one person who writes 66 signs indicating one's a typical Malay. Are You a Typical Malay? Assalammualaikum brothers and sisters, recently the media has been blaring about racial relations in Malaysia. So I, as a concerned, patriotic ;p Malaysian, had a chat with my best friend who is non-Malay. We decided to tell each other what are our (typical, stereotype) views of each others' race. And we agreed not to have any kind of grudge between us or others and to start a chain letter using each others' comment. And he told me this... 01. You call each other 'BODOH' for fun, and too 'BODOH' to realize...

I wanna call the stars Down from the sky I wanna live a day That never dies I wanna change the world Only for you All the impossible I wanna do I wanna hold you close Under the rain I wanna kiss your smile And feel the pain I know what’s beautiful Looking at you In a world of lies You are the truth And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero I’ll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me I’m shining like a candle in the dark When you tell me that you love me I wanna make you see Just what I was Show you the loneliness And what it does You walked into my life To stop my tears Everything’s easy now I have you here In a world without you I would always hunger All I need is your love to make me stronger

often i thought i'd be much happier but most of the time i'd prove myself wrong.often i'd regret with the decisions i;d made and be miserable with myself.to get away with it,i;d often blame other people,and maybe other things...never to look back at myself and admit my mistakes but simply put all the blames to other things. and often too i find myself blaming fate for all the bad things happening to me...but when i sit down and think about all the things ive done,i have to bravely admit that everything bad comes from myself...from my inability to control myself...true enough all the good things come from God and all the bad ones come from me... and true enough if i had followed my instinct one year ago all this wouldnt be happening....do i regret this? looking at the bright side of it,no i dont..i've enjoyed my life eversince but looking at the bad side of it...i am not who i used to be anymore.... so am i regretting it??i hope i'm not.. this is one big test Go...

ola..ever wonder what makes a perfect couple break up? i read a magazine at ninie's house and stumble upon this article about this couple which seemed to be really happy in the beginning,when they really took care of each other and never get bored just seeing each other,but eventually broke up..after 6 years.Isnt 6 years long enough to make you really love that person?isnt it enough to make you really involved with it?and isnt it enough to show that you really have the loyalty and committed to be in a relationship that you can sustain for 6 years??? i mean,logically,youve been together for 6 years and you still feel that you can lose that person that you've been in love for sic years?ok i;m talking crap but seriously and honestly i think..no,actually it kinda makes me afraid to be in a relationship,knowing that even after beeing together for such a long time there's still a possibility that everything youve gone through was useless..i mean...yeah after all those long year...

ola..ever wonder what makes a perfect couple break up? i read a magazine at ninie's house and stumble upon this article about this couple which seemed to be really happy in the beginning,when they really took care of each other and never get bored just seeing each other,but eventually broke up..after 6 years.Isnt 6 years long enough to make you really love that person?isnt it enough to make you really involved with it?and isnt it enough to show that you really have the loyalty and committed to be in a relationship that you can sustain for 6 years??? i mean,logically,youve been together for 6 years and you still feel that you can lose that person that you've been in love for sic years?ok i;m talking crap but seriously and honestly i think..no,actually it kinda makes me afraid to be in a relationship,knowing that even after beeing together for such a long time there's still a possibility that everything youve gone through was useless..i mean...yeah after all those long year...

went to sha's site and found this article in one of her entries.. Seorang lelaki dan kekasihnya bernikah dan acara pernikahannya sungguh megah. Semua kawan-kawan dan keluarga mereka hadir menyaksikan dan menikmati hari yang berbahagia tersebut. Suatu acara yang luar biasa dan sungguh mengesankan. Mempelai wanita begitu cantik dan anggun dalam gaun putihnya dan pengantin lelaki dengan tuxedo hitam yang gagah. Setiap pasang mata yang memandang setuju mengatakan bahawa mereka sungguh-sungguh saling menyintai dan sepadan. Beberapa bulan kemudian, si isteri berkata kepada suaminya: "Sayang, saya baru membaca sebuah artikel dalam majalah tentang bagaimana memperkuatkan hubungan dan tali pernikahan kita", katanya sambil menunjukkan majalah tersebut. "Masing-masing kita akan mencatatkan hal-hal yang kurang kita sukai dari pasangan kita. Kemudian, kita akan membahas bagaimana kita mengubah hal-hal tersebut dan membuatkan perkahwinan kita bersama lebih bahagia ......