Ramblings of a Mami of Two

"maam, can i have a cheese of slice?" I'm stupid.. smack me in the head really hard. Please. I'm so freaking stupid. anyways, first exams are never my best ones. i ALWAYS screw up ALL of my first exams of the semester, then i'd gradually buck up. But the thing is the education system here doesnt allow that. The system requires one to excel all the time. Constant hardwork is not my cup of coffee. Homeworks doesnt help that much either. Once i've screwed up, in my case pretty badly, the chances to get an A are reduced to, hmm, almost 10 percent. Even if i managed to get a 100 for one exam, there's still no hope of getting an A. Well, even if there is, I'd have to get a perfect score in the finals, which is quite an impossible feat. That is why i prefer studying in other place yang final grade dia taken based on one final exam. Less pressure for me. At this particular moment, i feel like slamming my head into the wall of my room and knock myself out. for ...

oi what's this update-my-address bunch of emails nih??? ringo tu ape? Been getting too many emails like that.. are they automatically generated or what?Well, not a big problem pun sebenarnya but they kinda annoy me at times. Nusantara's practise went well.. ach bought new camera, this super complicated camera but one nice thing bout it, it makes nice clicking sound everytime ambik gambar.. makes one feels like a pro. Aisey camera ratus2 tak rasa cam pro tak tau la... Ada benda nak cakap but too lazy to write. Online shopping is so fun. Deciding where to stay next semester is really hard. Quad - Close to classes + meal plan = good choice + less money + shared bathroom = not a good choice. Stackwyck - well... Rahps - haha. E-complex - Looks too scary to live in. Colonie - Still the best choice so far. My own kitchen, my own bathroom, my own peti sejuk my own microwave my own bathtub my own everything, but do get a bit lonely at times. So? Sigh. I just wanna ...

bodo aa bodo tau tak bodo. nak gi shopping pls nak gi habeskan duit. tak tak nak gi walmart beli hair dye. tak tak potong rambut dulu pastu baru dye. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa bodo bodo. aaaaaaaaa bongoknya hw. Bodo nya professor kasi hw. Muahahahahaha bodo nya ajan tu pon nak komplen. Tanak hw takyah skolah la. pi carik datuk kaya pastu kawen. Bodo.

saya tak pergi crossgates lalala instead i spent 1 hour dekat rite aid, ended up buying 2 blushers one pencil sharpener and a lipstick for 5 dollars hehehe... my my my~

yeay yeay sekarang weather agak best... mau pergi ke crossgates sorang2 hari ni... nak rase apa rasa shopping tanpa ada orang dikiri dan di kanan... aaha tapi gile sbb smalam baru je gi crossgates sbnrnya...beli a pair of jeans and a pair of pants from delia for 15 dollars. hahah murah kan kan kan?? and got myself one jacket belang2 so comel and so fits me nicely... cam duit ribu2 je nak gi crossgate hari2... but see, the thing is, i NEED to revamp my wardrobe. sudah bosan lalala... need okay bukan want. so okay nak gi ke tak pergi wehh??? tak gi sbb: 1) naik bas cam sejam.. buhsannn laa weyy tunggu satu jam... 2) kena jalan sorang2 from peoples... menakutkan + maybe sejuk 3) smalam baru pergi... hehe.. 4) kkonon2nya kalau pergi nanti membuang masa, baik baca buku utk analog. nak gi sbb: 1) sangat nak rasa pergi shopping sorang2 2) smalam sangat sekejap, didnt get some things i wanted 3) aaaa.... tak berdaya melawan nafsu menghabiskan duitku~ okay selepas menimbangk...

halo... pada pendapat saya, tulis apa2 pun, chatting ke website ker dalam dalam bentuk tulisan kecik dan tulisan besar campur2 (contoh: ThHIs iS cOoL! HoHOhOhEHeHE...) adalah ridiculous and childish, serta menampakkan ke-wannabe-an anda. Serta, menunjukkan anda ingat anda perasan cool. Tapi tak. Muahaha cam aku habis matured je and habis cool jer. Bla! kepada diri sendiri.