aChieaJanie Turns 7 Today!

Today marks my 7th year of blogging.

I know, I was surprised too when I checked the date of my first post, that was on 12th August 2003. That was SEVEN years ago. I know it's been quite some time, but seven?! Has it been THAT long?

Looking back at my old posts, I am really glad that I've grown a lot over the years. I can’t believe how childish I was (still am, sometimes) back then! Most of my posts reflected my immaturity and narcissism. They were all sarcastic, littered with cusses, and some were downright depressing. (a post with a picture of slashed wrist? What was I thinking?!)

You see, back then, blogging was a way for me to express myself and my views, which were always negative ones. I attacked people quite a lot too. I was an angry, me-against-the-world girl who blamed everything else for everything that went wrong in my life. The lecturers, TAs, family, good friends and even boyfriend were my regular targets in the blog posts.

Those targeted at good friends (of course, we were good friends but girlfriends always bitch about one another!) were usually written in sarcastic posts, or sometimes i’d take some friend quotes off the internet like friends in need are friends indeed or something like that. Posts like these usually came out after some fights and by posting entries like that I was hoping that the relevant people would terasa. Ek eleh. Gila bitchy, coward dan juga immature.

The depressing posts usually came out after the exam results were announced. Yeah, I gotta admit i wasn’t among the bright ones in RPI, but even after acknowledging this, I never took the exam results with grace. Usually a week after I’d be super depressed that all I thought was committing suicide. Okay, jap, I didn’t really wanna die, saje je making statements. I thot it was cool letting myself out and transparent like that.

Then there were occasional posts targeted at my then-boyfriend now husband. Okay tak payah la explain yang ni karang mengantoikan diri sendiri. Dah kawin dah pun tak relevant lagi.

In between the angry and depressing posts, when I wasn’t mad at anything, I’d write about what I did, what I ate at RPI's Union, what I felt and sometimes what I wore or what Elle wore to class.... Eh. Whyyy. Ohh whyyyy. Of course there are occasional posts about how fun my holidays were. But happy posts were rare.

To tell you the truth, I myself can’t bring myself to read my old posts. The way I wrote, bitched about A LOT of stuff, viewed and analysed the happenings around me... I can’t believe I had that much of negativity in me. Haih. And I cant believe I had such a blatant disregard towards the feelings of people around me. Sukati aku je nak belasah orang dalam blog.

I am glad that I have left that phase behind.

I noticed that things started to change when I got married and gave birth. Suddenly, the world seemed to be brighter place. Like suddenly I have a lot of reasons to live and be happy. Yesss I know it’s cliché but it’s true! Tho i wish that my entries can be more varied from cooking and being a mommy and wifey to mountain climbing or diving, I am actually very-very happy with what I have now. 

In seven years, I have moved from someone who abused her blog for distasteful reasons like perli-perli people to someone who writes because she wants to share good things with people. Because she believes that by writing, she's in a way contributing and at the same time, she hopes to inspire people. Wah. Talk about being over ambitious aku ni.

Btw, I've always enjoyed blogging. Maybe when I become someone famous one day this blog can be published into a book. The Stories of aChieaJanie - the Couple that Changed the World.

Wahhhhhhhhhhh berangan!