When Emotions Left Uncontrolled

Hakimi and I were having our dinner. Mula-mula I was feeding him but after he tasted the traces cili api from my fingers he refused to be fed.

Lepas tu dia amik his own plate and senduk nasi and lauk sendiri. Tapi ya Allah makan punya slow, sekejap main buzz light year sekejap mata fixed on the tv. Somehow that pissed me off.

After repeatedly telling (yelling) him to concentrate eating, I lost my patience. I grabbe his buzz and threw it across the room.

I immediately felt bad.

With nasi still in his mouth, he looked down and I could see tears streaming down his cheeks. Tak lama lepas tu I heard him sobbing.

I felt, and still feel extremely bad now.

Nasib baik hakimi is like ach, he cooled down immediately. Ach went to him and made some silly jokes (memang itu approach dia to cool kimi down) while I sat next to kimi, still feeling bad.

And you know what I did afterwards? I gave him a pack of cheezels that ach denied him last week.

That didn't make me feel any better tapi...

Sorry kimi. Sometimes Mami can be very hot tempered. I love you. I will always love you.