Updates from a Mummy to Be
Three Months Ago
My heart stopped beating, dropped to the floor and felt like it was squashed by the biggest elephant alive when I saw the big "+" sign on the test kit. Okay, that didn't sound very grateful of me but heyyyyyyyyy what do you expect?????
Anyways, I really didnt know what to feel or how to react. Nak senyum ke... nak nangis ke... I stood there transfixed, terkelu terkujat, macam askar yang jaga Buckingham Palace. Then finally I cried. Hard. Nearly cried my eyeballs out. I mean that was a surprise. Back then I still wasnt sure if it was a nice surprise or not, but I'd say i was more inclined to say no. Oi, we planned to plan, like.. 2 years or so... tup tup amek kau setengah tahun pun tak sampai!!!Amekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.....
Seriously, I was so shocked and angry I didnt talk to Ach for 2 days. (sorry yayang) =P
Alright alright call me ungrateful bitch and what not, but dudess... this is not like kawen, i dont like you, get the hell out of my house and go to hell. This is BEING PREGNANT... a human being is totally, 100% dependent on you. I cannot simply tell the baby to go to hell and leave the baby tepi jalan and expect it to live on its own what? It cant even tell you its hungry. I wont even have the heart to do it anyways... Awww...
Ach and I talked and talked and talked... most of the times I'd throw tantrum at nobody in particular (tipu... marah ach sebenarnya). I was seriously moody... We talked a lot... You see, I didnt expect to have a baby too soon.. I was scared that a baby's gonna change a lot of things and I wasnt ready for it... Whats gonna happen to movies, dinners, spontaneous shoppings and holiday trips, work, money.... I havent even learned salsa yet. Or even survey which school to go for masters (berangan sikit2). I was barely adjusted to being a wife, and now Ive got to prepare to be a mother???!! Oy~~ I still cant wake up earlier than ach does. Doesnt that say anythingggg????? Alloo??
So you see... I really wasnt in a good mood the first few weeks after the "discovery".
Now
After a while and after a couple of weeks of mandatory morning vomits... I started to be in peace with what I was given. I took it as a compliment ... The way I see it, God thinks I'm matured enough to be a mummy. It's either that... or.. God thinks I have sinned too much and He's giving me a chance to redeem myself and spend lesser time in hell... whatever it is, I still win both ways. Hehehe...
Baby bump is already showing... at first I dreaded looking at the fat bloated woman in the mirror, but now I actually feel sexy. And very-very womanly. Eceyy... Seriously, that bump IS sexy. (smelling like puke is not in the sexy equation. reminder: always brush teeth after puking)
Oh, but then I have to close one eye lah on the newly-developed stretch marks and the worsening cellulite on my butt. Whhyyyy laaa cant the tummy expand sorang sorang? Does it have to bawak everything else to expand together gether with it?? What, because you cannot be thin you make everything else fat is it?? Selfish tummy.
Ala dah panjang la pulak. I have tons of things to say but the thing is I'm quite lazy to type all.. So till next time (I promise its gonna be soon enough!), take good care everybody.. love!
My heart stopped beating, dropped to the floor and felt like it was squashed by the biggest elephant alive when I saw the big "+" sign on the test kit. Okay, that didn't sound very grateful of me but heyyyyyyyyy what do you expect?????
Anyways, I really didnt know what to feel or how to react. Nak senyum ke... nak nangis ke... I stood there transfixed, terkelu terkujat, macam askar yang jaga Buckingham Palace. Then finally I cried. Hard. Nearly cried my eyeballs out. I mean that was a surprise. Back then I still wasnt sure if it was a nice surprise or not, but I'd say i was more inclined to say no. Oi, we planned to plan, like.. 2 years or so... tup tup amek kau setengah tahun pun tak sampai!!!Amekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.....
Seriously, I was so shocked and angry I didnt talk to Ach for 2 days. (sorry yayang) =P
Alright alright call me ungrateful bitch and what not, but dudess... this is not like kawen, i dont like you, get the hell out of my house and go to hell. This is BEING PREGNANT... a human being is totally, 100% dependent on you. I cannot simply tell the baby to go to hell and leave the baby tepi jalan and expect it to live on its own what? It cant even tell you its hungry. I wont even have the heart to do it anyways... Awww...
Ach and I talked and talked and talked... most of the times I'd throw tantrum at nobody in particular (tipu... marah ach sebenarnya). I was seriously moody... We talked a lot... You see, I didnt expect to have a baby too soon.. I was scared that a baby's gonna change a lot of things and I wasnt ready for it... Whats gonna happen to movies, dinners, spontaneous shoppings and holiday trips, work, money.... I havent even learned salsa yet. Or even survey which school to go for masters (berangan sikit2). I was barely adjusted to being a wife, and now Ive got to prepare to be a mother???!! Oy~~ I still cant wake up earlier than ach does. Doesnt that say anythingggg????? Alloo??
So you see... I really wasnt in a good mood the first few weeks after the "discovery".
Now
After a while and after a couple of weeks of mandatory morning vomits... I started to be in peace with what I was given. I took it as a compliment ... The way I see it, God thinks I'm matured enough to be a mummy. It's either that... or.. God thinks I have sinned too much and He's giving me a chance to redeem myself and spend lesser time in hell... whatever it is, I still win both ways. Hehehe...
Baby bump is already showing... at first I dreaded looking at the fat bloated woman in the mirror, but now I actually feel sexy. And very-very womanly. Eceyy... Seriously, that bump IS sexy. (smelling like puke is not in the sexy equation. reminder: always brush teeth after puking)
Oh, but then I have to close one eye lah on the newly-developed stretch marks and the worsening cellulite on my butt. Whhyyyy laaa cant the tummy expand sorang sorang? Does it have to bawak everything else to expand together gether with it?? What, because you cannot be thin you make everything else fat is it?? Selfish tummy.
Ala dah panjang la pulak. I have tons of things to say but the thing is I'm quite lazy to type all.. So till next time (I promise its gonna be soon enough!), take good care everybody.. love!
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