First Ramadhan on My Own

Without mak.

Why does it matter? 

Because I will be the one responsible to siapkan sahur for the family. 

Yes, at 29, when others my own age are already waking up at 530 daily to prepare breakfast, lunch and dinner for the whole family, waking up at 5 am for 30 days in a year, is really, really a big deal for me. 

Spoilt? Yes. Lazy? Yes. Well. Lately. Yes, I have been very very lazy lately.

So for all the years that I have lived, I have never been the one to wake up early and prepare sahur for everyone. Okay prolly a few times, when Abah was in the hospital and mak wasn't home, but seriously, can't recall when was the last time I took that responsibility. Usually aku bangun je the maid and mak dah prepare sahur aku tinggal makan je. When I was in RPI  i would either have early sahur or skip sahur altogether, which was bearable sebab it was winter. 

Oh my goodness writing this down is seriously painful. 

Now that we are living in our own house, honestly, I dread the coming 30 days. Not because I have to fast, but whether I can be strong enough to beat my laziness and be the woman mak was to me, to my family. And I have to sebenarnya, so I can prepare bekal for my lunch teeheheheehe. 

I hope Allah gives me the strength, not only to be strong for ach and kimi, but also for me to fast as best as I can this Ramadhan. 

Thank you.

Oh lastly, Selamat Berpuasa from aChieaJanie and family!