aJanie Turned Big Three-Oh
*SUPER BELATED POST*
I drafted this post before I turned 30, updated it a day after and then forgot to publish. Blegh.
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When I realised that I was about to turn 30, which was a week before, I kinda panicked and had a major case of depression. I think I went through a mid-life crisis, heck, I still get severely depressed whenever I think about it.
You know, I realised that in the 30 years that God has given me to live on the face of His earth, I have not achieved much, and I don't have a clear path in front of me. What have I done? Have I contributed to anyone's happiness? Have I contributed to anyone? Where am I going? Am I going to continue driving a compact car for the rest of my life? Am I going to be limited to the neighboring countries when I travel?
As you can see, I have a pretty bleak outlook on life.
After three paras, I still don't know what the point of this entry is.
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I wrote the above a few days ago. I hate being so negative so I forced myself to acknowledge the good things that I have done for the past thirty years.
I drafted this post before I turned 30, updated it a day after and then forgot to publish. Blegh.
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When I realised that I was about to turn 30, which was a week before, I kinda panicked and had a major case of depression. I think I went through a mid-life crisis, heck, I still get severely depressed whenever I think about it.
You know, I realised that in the 30 years that God has given me to live on the face of His earth, I have not achieved much, and I don't have a clear path in front of me. What have I done? Have I contributed to anyone's happiness? Have I contributed to anyone? Where am I going? Am I going to continue driving a compact car for the rest of my life? Am I going to be limited to the neighboring countries when I travel?
As you can see, I have a pretty bleak outlook on life.
After three paras, I still don't know what the point of this entry is.
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I wrote the above a few days ago. I hate being so negative so I forced myself to acknowledge the good things that I have done for the past thirty years.
- Graduated engineering school with an engineering degree (ahahaha okay. Didn't really put the degree to good use but at least I got a fake american accent with it =P)
- Scored myself the perfect husband =)
- Gave birth to two beautiful kids
- Bought a property on my name (okay, shared, but still. hehe.)
- I've paid off my car. It's a compact car, and I have absolutely NO PROBLEM driving it for the rest of my life. At least I'm debt free.
- I contributed to my family. I know I made my Mak proud of me.
- I started to wear my tudung. Still not a better muslim but at least I'm trying.
- I have good friends
- My mihun soto is the best, but my bergedel can be better.
- I've been to quite a number of countries, besides tanah tumpah darahku
Not bad.
Although I can't say I initiated a donation drive, fixed a poor man's roof, adopt an orphan, started a million-dollar business, yadda yadda yadda, I think I've served my stakeholders pretty well. I should be proud of myself for that.So yeah. I'm satisfied with what I have so far.
Not bad, not bad. I'm thankful that I've been given the opportunity to experience the above. I'm thankful that I made it to 30.
What is there to complain? =)
Thank you for your wishes. Here's to many, many more years to come!
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| Mami, Hadi and Abang Kimi. |
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| That's my husband |
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| And this, is the map to my birthday card. Hakimi drew this for me. Seriously, it was quite impossible to ikut but luckily Hakimi is really-really bad at keeping secrets. |
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