Happy 7th Birthday, Kimi

This morning while I was preparing your breakfast, you came to me and gave me a pink card that read:

Thank you Mami sebab lahirkan saya dan saya pandai main magic pencil dan magic getah

Thank you Hakimi for being my son.

Hakimi,

I am not the best mother in the world, I let you eat megi, I stared at my phone while I am with you, I sometimes missed making breakfast for you. After seven years, I still don't know if I had taught you life's basic skills, I don't know if I had raised you well or ruined you, I don't know if I had trained you well.

But Hakimi,

You have brought me nothing but happiness. You are my hero. You saved me from what I was, you made me a better me. You saved us.I think I owe you more than you'd ever owe me.

You know Kimi, the world out there, it's a cruel, cruel world. I will prepare you for all the world has to throw at you, but I will also teach you to cherish what makes the world to you. I am trying my best Hakimi. I hope you will grown up into a fine young man.

But if you grow up and think that I haven't done a good job, I am sorry. I have tried. And I am still trying. I start every year thinking, "what skill should I teach my son? What kind of person will he grow up to be?". Then I talk to you about goal setting. I tell you to pray five times a day. I buy you books to read. I made you do your dishes.

I don't know if I am doing the right thing my son, but I'm trying my best. I love you Kimi.