A Decade of aChieaJanie

(and 2 months, give and take) had passed since I first wrote on aChieaJanie. This was my first post:

bla bla bla for my first entry yang tak tau jadi ke tak..heheh..yeayyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dah jadiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!bley laa mengumpat orang lepas ni...=)muahaha....nanti orang kate aku suke ngumpat laks...tak ler..tipu je..tapi yang betul2nyer...aku sangat sukaaaa sebab ade bende nih...muahaha ntah nape ntah..

Can you feel my excitement? Hehe. I was clearly VERY excited as evidenced by the amount of exclamation marks in one paragraph. I don't remember what prompted me to start blogging, but I think it had a lot to do with the facts that:

1. it was summer and I didn't have much to do; 
2. I had a programmer boyfriend who spent 90% of his time in front of the laptop, coding;
3. I was kinda good with Photoshop and felt like I wanted to use it for something other than airbrushing my pimples and making my skin glow more than it actually did;
4. Blogging was a trend back then. 

Looking back, I was an extremely negative kid. It wasn't very difficult for me to find faults with almost anything. A lot of things seemed to be not good enough for me; the friends I had, my professors, my sandwich, chain emails (forward this or bad stuff will happen to you kinda emails), even Malaysian radio shows made my blood go upstairs.

There seemed to be a lot of negativity in me. Probably I hated myself THAT much that I had to make myself feel superior by picking on stuff even over the smallest of things. As embarassed as I am at my old self, I am not going to delete those entries. Feel free to read my old posts, but please do not judge because I have gone a long way since those days. I have weathered many mistakes, masked a lot of sadness and braved through a lot of problems to see that there are a lot more to life than complaining over sampaikan salam aidilfitri.

But I do not regret having this blog. Through aChieaJanie, I know myself better. Like I've said, writing made you realise things that you wouldn't have otherwise realised. I made new friends. Through this blog , I can replay and re-feel (if there is such a word) my emotions at a particular time. I can feel the rush of emotions that I felt when ach and I went for our honeymoon, I first heard Kimi's heartbeats, when I celebrate my first mom's day, or that time when I left my first job. 

There is one thing that I regret tho, and that is the blog's link. d-lady? What the hell? Whattttt? It sounds like those ridiculously expensive, untested, OEM beauty products and "health products" with porn-ish adverts littered in Malay newspapers.  

Now lets put that aside. 

Dear readers (who are now mostly friends),

I humbly apologize if I had offended you during the course of the ten years. Please forgive the child I was when I wrote about how much of a bad friend you were, and please forgive the smug mom I was when I wrote about breastfeeding and feeding my sons salt-and-sugar-free only food. Please forgive me when I wrote too much about my angelic-domestic god husband macam lah husband aku sorang je macam tu, but really, my only intention was not to show off but rather letting him know how much I appreciate him and the things he's done for us (because seriously, I suck at face-to-face conversations. I let my keyboard and pens and handmade cards do the talking - okay sorry again).

Please find it in your hearts to forgive me. I'm just a very sentimental and opinionated person who likes to write.

And to my children,

I hope my love live on through my writings.

I look forward to many more good years with aChieaJanie. 

Cheers.